© Joyce Shintani 2021

joyce@joyceshintani.com

Cover design by Christian Bär

www.lektorat-baer.de

Designs courtesy of

Tatiana Vásquez Arellano

www.holamiraestudio.cl

Publication by Lektorat Bär

www.lektorat-baer.de, Stuttgart, Germany

Herstellung und Verlag:

BoD — Books on Demand GmbH

Norderstedt, Germany

ISBN 9783753436937

Table of Contents

1 Innocence

Attending

Shadow thing lurks inside

robbing breath and time;

makes spring thrush envied sister,

whispers stabs at night.

What hard thing beneath the breast?

cramping, sparking mine!

Tight crumpled knot—

whole galaxy—

waits to feel

unfurled.

Childhood

Lacerated innocence

black-boxed in pain

desperation insensate—

numbness the only surcease

from metal-toothed horror

2 Flush of Life

Fifth Month in Germany

Skirt: crisp cotton

desert-hot air

and asphalt

Santana on open face

open belief, I can do it;

possibility—a probability.

Shiny auto new

clean and hot

glinting expectations.

Steel, concrete, hope—

all of a package.

Face to sun

bright smile unafraid—

unaware:

emptiness behind openness.

Cloud gray day

Regenschnee

lead-air pressure

Hölderlin-heavy immobility

stasis—

fixed on

vorbei.

Oh, California

Oh, young half-woman…

Birthday

I view the hurdles I must take

to pass from girl to wife,

yet cling to toys and high-pitched voice,

elude responsibility.

But a humming tone reminds me:

I’m bound to stretch

if I’ll catch

my thirty-second year.

Homage to Barbara

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